Refreshed

Have you ever felt like you were getting closer and closer to the edge, just about to fall overboard? That is how I have been feeling for the past couple of weeks, very stressed and close to the brink of my sanity. I started noticing it at work and at home. I started snapping at my family and my kids at school. My husband told me that I'm grumpy all the time. That's not the way that I want to treat people, especially my family. Then today happened. We had a break today at work. We finally got our planning day that we've been trying to have for weeks. I got to spend the day with my team, an adult day. We really worked hard too, but it was nice to get a chance to talk to adults. I start every day with a 3 year old and 12 week old. Then go to work and spend all day with 9 year olds. I don't even really get to talk to adults at lunch anymore because I have to pump. Then I go home to my 3 year old and 12 week old again until I go to sleep. I haven't had any time to just talk to friends and enjoy myself and I think I really needed it. I love my children more than anything and I love being with my students, but that planning day today really helped me to feel refreshed. I'm hoping that when I go back to work tomorrow, I can be a kinder teacher who is much more understanding instead of the teacher who yells all the time. It really helps to get that break in routine. I feel like a new person tonight.